Redemption

You have redeemed my soul from the pit of emptiness. I once hid from you because I was ashamed of the mistakes that I made, but You pulled me out of the mud. You cleaned me, gave me food and shelter, warmed me in the shadows of Your wings. You taught me how to walk again, and You taught me how to love. You taught me how to live again, and You loved me when I couldn't love myself. You carried me through the desert. You held me through the storms. You were there on the darkest night and You ordered the light to shine. You named the stars. You counted each hair on my head. You are the beginning. You are the end. You call me Yours. You redeemed me when all hope was lost. You have delivered me from death.

When Things Break

Accidents happen. Things are dropped. Glass shatters. Liquid splashes. Electronics break.

Let's say that I dropped a certain mustard colored purse that happened to have a glass bottle of Arizona Green Tea in it that was three fourths full, and let's just say that the bottle shattered, flooding my bag with a vengeance, as if my purse were inhabited by tiny little sodomites, and let's just say that I happened to have my camera in my purse, and the camera case is not water proof, and now the camera is sticky and broken.

Well, at least I can say that the camera was a find... (that seems to happen to me quite often, actually) so I technically didn't pay anything for it, so there's nothing for me to be upset about really.

In the grand scheme of things, there is a lot I have to be grateful for, but it's still disappointing when things break.

The Day Is Getting Closer

Honestly, I want this world to reach Armageddon or Rapture or whatever. Sometimes it feels like I'm already in the final days. I'm so tired of angry young men threatening the ones I love as well as my life with violence. Nothing can quell their anger but blood. Fine. Attack me, shoot me, destroy me. I'm too saddened to even put up a fight.

I'm ready to experience the peace that passes all understanding. I'm ready to go to a place where evil cannot exist. I'm ready to see my dad glowing with the glory from having been in the presence of God, I'm ready to see the face of the Beautiful One who rescued me from my sinking grave. Oh, Lord, into your hands, I commit my spirit. Please take me now.

Dare You To Move

So, it looks like I left a big chunk of my heart in New York City, which is awesome and frustrating. Do I feel ready to take the stage? Well, yes and no. I don't think I'll be performing in the same capacity. Honestly, I don't care if I don't end up on Broadway. I just want to do something that will impact the world for a greater good.

Carol and Jaydip's wedding was beautiful and the whole process was delightful to watch and participate. At one point, me, Brandon (the guitarist) and Liz (one of Carol's Bridesmaids, girlfriend of Brandon) went to Central Park and did some busking. We sang for about forty minutes and got four dollars. It felt great to just sing and perform again before an audience. We donated the four dollars to Shaela, another bridesmaid, who is in the process of adopting a child from Hungary. Even though four dollars isn't very much, it felt good to use my talents to help others.

I also got to see so many of my talented and artistic friends, and they just filled my heart with so much joy and laughter.

I'm ready to go back to the city.