Much To Everyone Else's Happiness

Colby and I are no longer an item. I won't go into the details of why we broke up, but I am very doubtful that we will end up together. We are still talking, which is good. It's my first real break up, and it hurts a lot more than I imagined, but I must say that I am taking it better than I thought I would. We still talk to each other on the phone and over video chat, and I think that we will be friends, despite our differences.

The tour has been very good lately. I've been getting along with everyone very well, and it has helped me feel more confident and positive.

I've learned a lot, in these past six months of exploring life outside of the comfortable bubble of my conservative breeding, and though there may be nay sayers who would look down upon my actions, I feel as though G-d has really been with me through the ups and downs, and has allowed me the freedom to experience new things. Falling is not the same as failing, and maybe I am sadder, but I am also wiser.

The Jew and The Gentile

I know I should have thought about things while we were still dating, but I didn't think things would get serious so soon. Colby's talking about marriage and kids, and asking me how I would feel if I were to have children raised in the Jewish faith. I know it goes against a lot of what I have been taught about unequal yoking and everything, but I wonder how unequal are we?

It's too early to talk about marriage. I don't plan on getting married for another three or four years. The year 2014 is a good year to me, and who knows what could happen between me and Colby. I love him, yes, but that doesn't mean that I'm going to get married. I mean, maybe he'll get tired of being a gentleman and waiting to have sex until marriage, and he'll go off and find a girl who will give it up. Who knows what may happen in the next four years?

It seems stupid to end a good relationship based on what may or may not happen in our future... but at the same time, I know that what happens now determines what will happen in the future. Say for example, will I miss my non-existent chance with Chris Rice by being with Colby?

Too much thought for the morning. Must pack my suitcase now. Goodbye Nashville, Hello Chicago.