Mine's a Fine Life

I love New York. Always have. Always will. I don't know what my future holds, but I know that New York makes me happy. I'm an extremely lucky girl. I wish I knew what I wanted to do with my life. The truth is, I have no idea. But I do have a very good life. In spite of all that's happened, I'm still here, and I'm happy to be here.

Smiling Til My Face Hurts

My boots are bright orange

And it rains in the morning

I've got the sunshine

in my soul

Your left blue shoe wet

from the puddle-glummy sidewalks

With this girl on your arm

You don't mind a bit

Sugar bears and pot roasts

Picnic with out a "k"

Smiling 'til my face hurts

On a grey September day

Roof Raising

PMS is no joke! I apologize for anything I said and did or cried about while under its influence.

Since Friday, my week has been just dandy. I won a free trip to Millburn, NJ to see NEWSIES at Paper Mill Playhouse!!!

I got two airplane tickets, two tickets to see Newsies on Saturday, two hundred dollars to spend on food and transportation, two passes to a spa, two tickets to see Newsies opening on Sunday, two tickets to the AFTER PARTY, and a two night stay at the Hilton. WHAT?!?!?!

My friends, when God blesses me, GOD BLESSES ME!

There's been a lot of hell to get through, and a lot more coming, I'm sure, but when things are good, I just have to raise my hands in the air, and thank God like I just don't care.

My Sadness on Display

Why should I conceal my feelings of sadness and hurt just to make people feel comfortable? Life is difficult and painful at times, and if I could turn off my emotions I would. Until then, my sadness will be on display. And if I am joyful, that will be on display as well.

You Ain't Got No Alibi...

Sometimes I see people that I don't really like on facebook and they look uglier than I remembered, and I get a little happy inside. This is a terrible thing to say. I am sure that someone is on facebook right now, looking at pictures of me and seeing how much weight I've gained since February and is delighting in the fact that I'm a good deal more cuddly than I once was.

Vanity isn't something to boast about, but I think that my face is a cute one. I'm chubby, but at least my face is nice. The only way some peoples' ugly mugs can be fixed is through surgery, and even then, that won't stop their children from looking appalling. I know it's very mean to make myself feel better by insulting others, but right now, I am a little bit meaner than usual.

Just give me a moment, and I will get over myself and apologize. But right now, I'm just glad that I'm not as unfortunate looking as some.

Thank God Almighty

I am so thankful. So thankful. I have a wonderful man in my life who is not just kind and thoughtful; he makes me laugh and brings me such joy. I have a family who I am able to spend time with and love even when we are so vastly different from one another. I have the most amazing friends that a person could wish for. Life is good.

Some Days

Some days I just really miss my dad. I wish I could be in heaven.

Seriously.

You know it's serious when HE changes his facebook profile picture to a picture of the two of you before you do. Well, four months in and things are still going strong. I'm starting to think that this might just stand the test of time.