Days of No Appetite

Proverbs 29:18: Where there is no vision, the people perish.

I wish someone could send some electricity and passion my way because I feel so apathetic. I sit at home and self-medicate with Netflix. I know I need to set goals and get on with life, but I don't know how.

I look at the mess and feel overwhelmed, and then I do nothing, and then wonder why I feel so miserable.

Proverbs 6:6: Go to the ant, you sluggard; consider its ways and be wise! It has no commander, no overseer or ruler, yet it stores its provisions in summer and gathers its food at harvest.

I need to stop being a lazy bones and start being productive.

I Might Be Midget

I want to write clever song lyrics and have a cool band.

Today I saw The Addams Family with Mark Moscovitz. Surprisingly, I didn't get tears in my eyes or feel like I was missing out on being in a show. Imagine that.

Dark Thoughts

I just found the facebook page of the man who murdered my dad.

On his wall, there were comments like "Rest In Peace" and I wanted to scream.

I don't want him to rest or have peace. I want him to be weary and in turmoil for all eternity.

I know I need to forgive that man... I just don't know how to forgive him.

Grey Skies

I am in New York City again, and well... everything is different. I haven't been packing as much as I need to. I should be getting things done. Instead, I'm being lazy and sad. Except when I'm with my friends. I should be productive, but I don't even know where to begin.

The only thing that's gotten me out of the apartment today, so far is buying cat food for Sophie.

Tsunami

When tragedy strikes, how do we respond? I can only cry, and then pray, and then cry some more. Then pray again. I am thankful that my dear friends in Japan and their families are okay, but what about the others? All I know to do is pray and give the little that I have to help.

Hello. Goodbye.

My dad is dead.

My mom is being strong.

My sister

and I

do not get along.