Do Not Pass Me By

Quinn and I were in discussion about destiny last night, and there are two different destinies... well, generically speaking. There's a destiny which encompasses the life path of a career/job/what you're going to do with your time on earth, and then there's a separate destiny between you and God: who you essentially are, the marriage between spirit and flesh, the ultimate spiritual calling.

I don't want to miss out on either one. There is a me that no one can recognize, and I don't want to miss my chance to be her.

Under Construction

As I've been really delving into Madeleine L'engle, and listening to John Crowder, and hearing about quantum physics, I have been in this very spiritual cocoon. And I like it. I have been Daniel Fasting, and changing my eating habits, and it's been really clearing my mind from confusion and chaos.

After spending time with Quinn, Ashley, Erica, and my family, it's like I'm a different Annie. I feel like I've found my stripes. I am finally out of the starving dog phase, and I am a Zebra now. I've been connecting with all of the people at New York Dream Center, and I've been connecting with all of my friends around the city. I am blooming and growing.

I am still under construction. I am not yet the spirit woman inside. If I spend time in intimacy with the living God, then I will be more like Him. But I just have to be honest and say that there are a lot of areas in my life, where I am still a fumbling mess of a human being. I fight giving control over to the only one who can steer my life through rough waters. My interactions with people are mud puddles. I don't know how to explain this analogy, so I won't. You'll just have to gather what I mean from the context.

I know that I am always under construction, but these days, I try to help out, but end up hammering a few nails in the wrong places. Yeshua was a carpenter, so he knows what he's doing! He knows exactly what I need to be, and he will build it, if I will bend.

A Dream (Theater) Come True

I am going to brag for a little minute. God has been doing such awesome things in my life lately and I can't even comprehend why.

Okay, first of all, on my very first day back to the city, I walk into Starbucks on 70th and Broadway, and who should be working there, but my friend who I worked with at Columbus Circle. She happened to be the manager, and she hired me on the spot.

Second of all, the first Dream Theater show that I ever got to see was a FULL OUT ROCK SHOW. They've been touring with Iron Maiden, and have been the opening act, so they really don't get to do their epic pieces. However, the show I went to in Worcester was EPICALLY AMAZING. To top that, two days later, I saw Dream Theater again, and my friend Zack just happens to be cousins with Mike Portnoy (the drummer of DT). SO I GOT TO MEET THEM. Well, three out of five, two of them left early, but still, that's pretty darn awesome.

So, all in all, I have to say that I've had a few dreams come true this week, and God is good.