I hope that something better comes along

So things are fantastic, except that I'm not in the city of my dreams. I want to be back in New York, or I want to live in Hawaii now. Annnnnd, I'm trying to finish NaNoWriMo, against my own wisdom, I'll probably be pulling an all nighter to try to get it done.

Should I Give Up?

I am so behind for NaNoWriMo. Thoughts of giving up flood my brain. Don't know if I will. Maybe I'll give a good fight.

Life's a Happy Song

What a wonderful thanksgiving we had this year. It was a full table with lots of guests, and it was good for the heart. I miss my dad, but I am so thankful that he is in heaven. I am thankful for my family, my friends, and especially for the man I love.

We went to see the Muppet Movie and it was so great. It was just up our alley, and the theme of life being a happy song when there's someone by your side to sing along was just what I needed. I love that man of mine so very much.

And I don't care who knows it.

I love him so much. I love him. I love him. I LOVE HIM.

When I see him, I see the man I want to spend the rest of my life with. I see the only man that I have ever loved so deeply. He is the butter on my roll, the sugar in my bowl, the fudge on top of my ice cream sundae, and I don't want anyone else.

Oh, I love him.

I got a holiday job

I got a holiday job, and I'm excited and happy about it. I'll be working downtown, where all the lights are bright, and it'll be good for me. It's been so long since I've had a job (I don't really count the restaurant as a job), and it's about time.

It's going to be for the holidays, but hopefully, they'll keep me on staff for longer than just the holidays. I'd really like that.

I miss

I miss the me who was always outside

Digging graves of cats,

Riding bikes without holding onto the handles,

Running around the woods,

Tearing down forts,

Setting fire to plastic,

Living ferociously without fear or thought.

Choice

My choice for today is to let go of resentment.

I choose to release myself from the past

and look at it as a learning experience

I choose to own up to decisions that I have made

I choose to live without regret for things I cannot change

I choose to stop comparing myself to others

I am this person.

This body is mine.

This personality, love it or hate it, belongs to me.

I have become this person by my choices

Some good, some bad,

I take responsibility for the bad choices

I can even apologize for my wrong doings.

But I choose to stop beating myself up for past failures.

I hope that today will give me

Peace and understanding

But most of all

Love.

I choose

Love

for myself.

Job Interviews

Well, I got one job interview, and I think I nailed it. While I wish I had gotten a few more interviews, it's a-okay, so long as I have a job.

In Love

I have found the man that I will spend my whole life loving. I've never been more certain.