Live Jazz

I love live Jazz. Clarinets are awesome. Trombones rock. Saxes are soulful. An upright bass is sexy. And don't get me started on the drums. Woo, woo, woo!

In other news, I seem to be doing better. I've been taking care of babies, traveling, and just figuring out what to do with this life down here.

Weddings and such

After watching the Royal Wedding early in the morning, I want one of my own. I want a man. I want a marriage. I want it bad.

Riding and Riding

Riding and riding on beautiful horses. This is Misty, and I've been learning to ride. It's been therapeutic for me.

Sitting Gets me Antsy

I never guessed that I would end up back in SC. I thought I was unstoppable and free. I had no idea that my heart had so many strings connected to my parents and sister despite the distance. It's true that this is not what I wanted; this is not where I wanted to end up, and I know that I will not get stuck in the Carolinas, but I know that this is where I have to be for now.

I've been trying to invest my time into productive things like writing, riding horses, zumba, and swing dancing. I also want to add rock climbing when I feel a little more fit.

This is a resting place and once these wings heal, you'll see me flying again.

Days of No Appetite

Proverbs 29:18: Where there is no vision, the people perish.

I wish someone could send some electricity and passion my way because I feel so apathetic. I sit at home and self-medicate with Netflix. I know I need to set goals and get on with life, but I don't know how.

I look at the mess and feel overwhelmed, and then I do nothing, and then wonder why I feel so miserable.

Proverbs 6:6: Go to the ant, you sluggard; consider its ways and be wise! It has no commander, no overseer or ruler, yet it stores its provisions in summer and gathers its food at harvest.

I need to stop being a lazy bones and start being productive.

I Might Be Midget

I want to write clever song lyrics and have a cool band.

Today I saw The Addams Family with Mark Moscovitz. Surprisingly, I didn't get tears in my eyes or feel like I was missing out on being in a show. Imagine that.

Dark Thoughts

I just found the facebook page of the man who murdered my dad.

On his wall, there were comments like "Rest In Peace" and I wanted to scream.

I don't want him to rest or have peace. I want him to be weary and in turmoil for all eternity.

I know I need to forgive that man... I just don't know how to forgive him.